Showing posts with label charity. Show all posts
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6.20.2011

Anecdotes and A Ride to Michigan Pt. 1

Little towns soon run together. Riding along some stretched highway, we'd be taken on a brief run through a string of anonymous towns – a simple post office, line of forlorn houses, and the lone restaurant or convenience store resting patiently disheveled on the main corner. Coming out the other side I'd already forgotten the name so proudly and boldly wrapped around the face of the water tower. Those towns that hold fast to memory remain only as the result of some marking event, some spontaneous fortunate or unfortunate circumstance that it affords by lying on our path. The rest drift away in the silent parade, blindly streaming by.


Beside the main street on the sidewalk corner in an Ohio country town stood two people, a guy and a girl, tending a booth. “Pull over to drop Obama” was written on their sign. They called out to us and we brushed them off with succinct no thank yous, but were forced to a stop at the red light. The guy jogged up and asked about our trip and then offered us some reading material.

“Oh, uh, that's okay. We have plenty of books, thanks,” I said as the light turned green and we rode to the library.

-

It was filled with air conditioning and soft chairs, but we didn't have much to do and quickly became restless and left the library. Stepping back into the afternoon heat, we found those two people from earlier seated on the wooden bench beside our bikes, sitting, eating, and seemingly resting.

“Oh, boy...” Justin uttered in a sigh as we approached. He grabbed some water bottles and went to fill them. While I waited, out of politeness I broke the silence between us and asked them where they were from. This was a precursor to a conversation more thorough than I could have expected.

They each explained to me in turn. Being the Detroit-based faction of a larger network, they often went out on days like this and set up in the smaller towns, raising awareness for whatever their purpose was. Apparently today they'd chosen the wrong town and had gotten run off from their street corner display.

Justin returned and somehow it became less like carrying on a typical conversation. It was to be expected, though, given the context. Having consciously acknowledged a certain goal they directed their own speech to that determined political end they meant to promote.

We soon diverged into two separate conversations, Justin talking with the guy about American political history. He had introduced himself to us with a handshake as Allen. His penetrating eyes in the shadow of his hat's brim smiled out intensely, his calm evidently stimulated by the discussion. Tiffiny, the girl, and I spoke, seated in the grass in the shade of a tree. Her sunglasses were raised and resting on the top of her brown hair which she'd tied up in the back before sitting down. Our conversation revolved around science, astronomy, evolution, the relevance these things had to their movement, and the philosophy it had sprouted from.

It was strange talking to people with such comprehensive opinions. They'd both done this for years and their practice was evident. Their movement was all encompassing and trying to sift for a clear understanding of exactly what it entailed proved a slow process.

Tiffiny pulled out a book on Johannes Kepler and paged through it, seeking out a specific quote. She read it aloud and when finished her face abruptly lit up.

“Oh, I know! Here, you want to see something cool about how your mind works?” She drew a square on a piece of paper and labeled each of its sides as one unit (try this yourself if you like). I was to take this square, and with only the pen, the paper, and my mind, double its size in a way that was logical and provable. In other words, from this square with the area of one another square would be derived that, without a doubt, had an area of two relative to the original. It took me a while, but eventually, painstakingly, the answer was extracted from some hidden fold in my brain. She explained what she'd meant by it: the human mind has the innate potential to understand and, through reason, find order.

An hour had passed. I, and presumably Justin as well, had been impelled to reevaluate the assumptions we'd made at our brief encounter with them on the street corner. The ride they'd been waiting for, a mini-van, pulled up, parking in front of us, and brought close to the conversations.

“If anything we've talked about has intrigued you, you should come and visit our office.” Tiffiny invited. They were in a part of Detroit that was called Redford, Michigan.

Justin and I crossed the street to an ice cream shop that had long been waiting for us now and each bought a cone, ready for something sweet before navigating some distance at day's end. My head was fully occupied now and happy at finding unexpected pleasantness in the surprise meeting.

I had a surplus to consider as we left, beginning again to glide over the roads between fields. Looking around myself, I couldn't keep from projecting questions onto everything and wondering about the things I'd heard.



Justin's leg didn't seem to be fully healed, and pressing against a rushing wind all morning wore at it quickly. We reached Findlay, Ohio, and stumbled almost immediately upon a donut shop. Justin went in. I found him seated at a small square table in the corner. Both of us were pleased to be at least momentarily removed from the wind's incessant howl. I opened my computer, turned it on, and sat back. The busy highway sound of impending cars, and semis, usually rushing at my side, was pleasantly muffled by the shop window.

We'd primarily come to Findlay to have my bike fixed. It had a laundry list of problems: My left pedal had fallen off once and rarely wanted to spin freely anymore, and its cloth strap that had worked like a belt for my foot was worn into two useless pieces. My tired chain had broken three times, trying repeatedly to throw in the towel. I'd already bought its replacement, but I figured I'd wait to put it on with a fresh set of gears on the back (cassette) just for good measure.

It was one-fifteen in the afternoon when I searched the shop's location. Remembering it was Saturday I checked their website for operating hours and saw with a shock that they would close in forty short minutes.

“We gotta go!” I yelped at Justin, quickly scribbling the directions on a napkin and slapping my computer shut.

Through the traffic lights and weekend busy streets we sped downtown and found the place marked by display bicycles standing in front of the shop. I rolled my bike up onto the sidewalk, laid it against the wall outside, and opened the glass door. Stepping quickly around the lines of bikes in the store, I went up to the desk and first told them about my cassette/chain issue. The owner followed me out to see the gear ratio on the bike.

“I know you guys close at two, and I don't know how long it would take to fix,” I worried out loud.

“Oh, I'm not in a hurry. If it takes a little longer, it takes a little longer,” he said, genuinely. I smiled in relief.

Fortunately they had the part. In fact it had just been put onto one of the employee's bicycles. He voluntarily, even insistently surrendered it, taking the cogs from his wheel and layering them onto mine. “Hey, if I can't go to Alaska”, he said happily, “at least a part of my bike will!”

While he maneuvered those pieces around, the owner scooted about on his four-wheeled stool, picking out new pedals for me from a bin. He wrenched mine out and set to spinning the new ones into place, then seeing my back brake pads began shaking his head. Before I could say anything he'd torn open a box and was replacing them, too.

His hands working, he pointed out to me, “And we don't charge labor on any of this. Not to anybody who's traveling. I did a cross country back in college, so I can sympathize."

With fresh brake pads, cassette, and chain on he started a detailed adjustment of the brakes and gears. By two-twenty all was done. He set the total cost for all the work and parts equal to what he'd paid for the cassette alone, taking no profit whatsoever. What he really wanted in return was pictures of us in Alaska, and maybe a postcard.



While the late afternoon sun crept past a web of clouds we stopped at a gas station to eat. Justin went and laid in the shade of a tree, and I sat down on the curb, dialing the phone number Tiffiny had scrawled on a piece of folded paper for me. She and Allen had told us where they'd generally be over the next few days and offered to pick us up if we were in their area so I figured I'd see what they were up to.

She answered the phone sounding a little surprised at the call. I told her we were in Findlay and she said she needed to find something out about their schedule and would call me right back. I got up and walked over to where Justin was and my phone began to vibrate. Tiffiny now told me they could pick us up tomorrow from wherever we were in the morning. We'd just have to let her know where to go.

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Into the countryside we rode northward, paralleling the interstate. Again we found ourselves poking like pinpoints above a thinly stretched landscape, following a cardinal direction grid bursting with the green growth of agriculture. Above as we rode, the blurred overcast sky became further defined with gray detail in the waning light of sunset. The fields about us were growing darker every minute and weren't affording the privacy needed for a campsite of any security so, becoming further frustrated, we turned to a road going east. This lane split into two at a township's border. Directly ahead, in the vertex between the two roads laid a small public park. We rolled our bicycles through discretely and found a fairly hidden place on the leeward side of a section of wooden fence where we laid out our tents.

Darkness fell and sleep set on. The park's thick grass was an easy pad, nearly like lying on a feather bed to the tired mind of the traveler. Suddenly a bright light fell on our tents. A policeman peered with his flashlight into my mesh door.

“Hey,” I calmly greeted him.

“Hey, how many of you are there?” His voice betrayed a friendly nature.

“Just two. One in that tent, and then me in here.”

He asked what we were doing and I briefly explained the trip.

“See the problem is the park's closed at sundown,” he told us. “To be honest I don't have a problem with you guys being here, but the mayor does.”

“Well, where are we supposed to go?” I asked earnestly.

He hesitated for a second and then, “I'll be right back.”

Shortly he returned from his car, asked for our Ids, and then drove off, promising us that he'd return them. Justin and I sat down at a picnic table under the park's lone yellow light.

“This is stupid. The mayor has a problem? We're not hurting anybody. I'd just went to sleep, too,” Justin said.

“Don't worry about it. We'll figure it out. He's probably talking to the mayor right now.”

A few minutes later the police car headlights were coming down the park's dirt drive. He stopped and called us over to his window from the driver seat and handed back our Ids. “Alright, so you guys are good to go. You can stay the night, but, you know, try to get out early if you can, and don't be up walking around the park or anything. Good luck, guys. And thanks for your cooperation.”

We walked back to our tents, ready to return to sleep.

“But...where do we go?” Justin mocked, “That was good, though.”

More pictures posted on Facebook!

5.31.2011

Deliberate Intentions


May 19

On northward approach I went. The highway Gene had suggested kept me flowing on up/down elevations and the repetition of eroded mountains passed the day. A thin blanket of cloud remained in the sky, but it withheld its rain and kept the temperature a bit higher than it had been in days. By nighttime the land had become less extreme in its angles and would go by more smoothly.


May 20

By schedule I figured I'd be leaving Kentucky by tomorrow, but had no intention to rush. As evening began to close the day I stopped at some highway exit restaurants to search out a meal. I leaned my bicycle against a restaurant's stucco wall and sat down to roll a cigarette. A lady in fast food uniform came out and sat on the curb, lit her own cigarette, then cautiously meandered toward me. She asked if I was traveling and I introduced her to the trip. When she'd lived in Florida, she told me, she'd worked at a vegan/vegetarian place and had some friends who'd done something similar. She introduced herself to me as Cheryl.

“I love to meet people like this,” she said with a quiet smile, motioning to my bicycle. “I'm not very talkative, but if I see someone traveling or something I always talk to them and say everything right away, but then...well, what to say now?”

It was a meeting between two shy people who sensed familiarity, but both of us were unaware how to share the dialogue in our minds. Fortunately the most valuable things don't need words to be expressed and I perceived her kind sensitivity intimately in the silence between sentences.

“Hey, are you hungry? I get off in ten minutes and could bring you some food. Are you vegetarian or would anything be okay?” Excitement had entered her soft voice.

Every act of charity I encounter and the qualities of those who choose to provide it overwhelms me more each day. In some things appreciation may diminish with added quantity, but I find the opposite true of freely offered charity. These people themselves are loving kindness manifest, the voluntary instrument of absolute good will. Every altruistic act I've received is carved into me as a testament to the holiness of humanity and by each act this holiness approaches its whole.

God's perfect face shined onto me through her patient inquisitive eyes: seeking, giving, becoming good will. Love, exceeding and bountifully blessing, reflected on me from within the window of her eyes, a pristine symmetry of universal truth was mirrored for an instant in the imperfect person.

Under the changing sky Cheryl soon returned with a feast in a bag. She passed it on to me and, astounded by its weight, I thanked her, looking over it with gaping eyes. Each of us still with so much to say but no way to say it attempted to talk a minute more until her ride had arrived. The sun fell now below the horizon and the glow of evening began to fade. Then, having gotten into the car, waving goodbye they drove away and she was gone.


May 21

Riding through morning I stayed along a highway which looked to stretch flat and long to Kentucky's north border. It was a bright day. I rode on in the little shoulder singing to myself beneath the still blue sky. Surrounding fields dashed with lines of crops and little streams hinted at the Midwestern heartland.

Time passed in a haze of subconscious thought and flowing lands. As the sun crept west I found myself in traffic's evening rush. I listened to each vehicle pass. The pitch of the engine's whine rose steadily behind me, then, passing by, it would descend to become a flat hum in the distance ahead like every driver drawing breath and sighing at the completed day's work. In its wake a fold of unmowed grass bent into the vehicle's vacuum and followed away.

Suddenly I found myself becoming caught up in the rush of traffic. It immediately struck me as strange and unsettling, that I on my bicycle in the midst of a self-proclaimed pilgrimage should fall unconsciously into a repetition of this daily sprint. So I stopped pedaling and sat on the roadside to consider. This strange feeling required that I earnestly pause and deliberate why I was where I was, riding my bicycle.

I set to it:

Desire describes the surface, but what is contained within the desire? Somehow through my experiences I've accumulated this longing, but what are its details and contents?


When I'd completed my first journey it resulted in more than what I could have expected. I had conceived it in a naive desire to travel, but when I'd returned, the way in which I viewed everything had changed. I immediately began planning the next trip. Why had I wanted to travel and why now was I urged to continue? I still hadn't understood what was behind my desire, but I had gained an appreciation for the depth of the question. It is simple to give a lot of superficial answers as to why: a desire for simplicity, perhaps, or a need to slow down, to see the world or even just the country. But these barely capture a shade of it. It runs infinitely deeper into my blood and my build.

Travel itself has always come first with intentions following, attributed later as they seem to fit. I know a definitive reason must exist and from what examinations have proceeded I've managed to sufficiently distinguish what I currently see as my main purpose.

These trips are always hatched upon a feeling of dissonance between me and my surroundings. Erupting from stagnation, I'm repelled by the sterile fragility of apartment buildings and the fabric office partitions. There is something that demanded Thoreau to carve a home from the wood and live among it. That same thing endlessly tugged on Tolstoy, begging him to leave both comfort and family and set foot to path for a life of wandering. It is what whispered like an angel's breath in the ear of John Muir from every rustling leaf and crumbling pebble, his pulse quickening at its beckoning. It haunted Kerouac's steps all the years of his life. It is found equally in our blood and those stretches of land where the absolute satisfaction of every sense lies, that satisfaction most deeply engrained in humanity's heritage. It lies in the natural landscape and in the search for community and parity with it. This place was our home at our dawn and will be our bed in the dusk. It is our mother and sister and daughter, father and brother and son. The intimate love of it is fastened to our deepest body, bone and mind. From the foundations of humankind drifts a stream of profound appreciation for its natural ruggedness in which we matured. It has been hindered by modernity's vain distractions and so now I submerge myself wholly to be baptized in its primitive banks and to look out with renewed perspective from beneath its surface.

In the ignition of time came the unfurling of space and life developed and was gifted unto the primordial wild father, Adam. He was born and he learned for a time and then came his cursed fall in the instant when he became aware, realized, and understood and could comprehend himself. Then he commenced his migrations. His consciousness and migratory pattern is my birthright and inheritance, and I've been gifted and cursed by it and refuse to let it waste.

Through flawed eyes I look out on the sanctified landscape and see: the choir of birds who sing praises on high; the trees, austere monks, perpetually meditating on the cyclical wisdom found in days and seasons; and I look up to our priest, the sun, at his pulpit, the sky, his mere presence exposing to me in daily revelation the vision of God!

Travel is my vehicle for this experience. What could be more desirable to the one who seeks awakening into the rudimentary ends of experience? I find it readily along this black line of asphalt crawling beyond vision and conception, piercing and shattering the horizon's edge. It is no means to an end, but an end in itself. This is why I travel.